Thursday, 30 October 2008

Train tribes

So there I was getting the train to college...standing room only, minding my own business when I saw a group of women (presumably work colleagues) talking on the train. I wasn't evesdropping or anything but one of the women's husband had just bought a camper van without telling her or consulting her! Anyway the women were all very animated and discussion life intently.

I began to realise that everywhere around us there are pre-existing groups of people. On trains, in coffee shops and cafe's - everywhere! That's really exciting because it means that a vehicle is already in place to spread a message of hope and good news.

I began to realise, just by watching this one group of women, that the church is even by its own factory model inefficient. We wait for the ones and twos to come to the church in the hope that it will create the product of a new Christian. But by leaving the comfort and safety of our churches behind and take the message to groups of ppl on trains, in coffee shops and cafes we have the potential of connecting not with just ones and twos but with multitudes of people.

Church 2.0 is the the future...until someone creates update 2.1. This is really the priesthood of all believers. The ability for all of us to go and do church where we live, work, travel, rest and play. Let's together create something fluid, innovative and dynamic that will have a different interface depending on what context we may find ourselves in. Exciting stuff!

Tuesday, 28 October 2008

White Orbs in Photographs

Over the past few months I've been having a chat with few of my friends about white dots that keep appearing in some of our photographs. I've only ever seen them in pictures of Christian people or at Christian worship events. Here are just a few examples. I'd be keen to hear people's thoughts on what they thought they were? Do any of your photos have these white dots? Let me know wat you think

Some people believe these white dots are angelic orbs - I'm not so sure. However one theory that I have is that they look like halos as classically depicted in some artwork. For example

Keen to hear your thoughts...

Friday, 24 October 2008

This is Our God

Just a thought I had: Jesus experienced life in its fullness, yet he still wept at the death of Lazarus. What an encouragement; even when we endure difficulty it is still possible for us to experience fullness of life. WOW!!!

Loving this song:

Your grace is enough
More than I need
At Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your Spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your Spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

Rules Rules Rules

I've been thinking a wee bit about the 10 Commandments tonight (or the Decalouge - check who goes to Bible College). I used to think that these rules were there for us to follow so that we could please God. I now realise that God's commands and laws are there for us to avoid the pitfalls, to avoid those things that bring pain and hurt. By following God's commands we are able to live life in its fullness.

When Jesus says he is the fulfilment of the law - he's really saying he has the key to life. He is the one man man who has experienced life in its fullness. I was using the example of a weight watchers leader when talking to my friend tonight. These people often tell us how to lose weight, give us tips and advice. But if we look at them and we see someone who is overweight then their advice is discredited.

Why should we trust Jesus? Because he is the only person in the history of this world that has experienced the complete fullness of life. By following his tips for life and his advice we have a guide to a full, complete and satisfying life.

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

Things I like...

When I was younger...

Been thinking a lot about when I was little and the things that I wanted to do. I remember being 5 and wanting to be a pop singer. Don't worry not about to enter X Factor or anything but thinking back it kinda surprised me. I had just forgotten about it. I've taken to singing in the flat now when no one else is around.

Even when I'm in worship I'm so often moved by dance and by flag waving. I'm beginning to realise that I'm actually quite a creative and expressive person. There's definitely something within movement, music and rhythm that connects with me. I don't think I've always let myself admit that though.

Monday, 20 October 2008

I think the events of the past couple of weeks are just beginning to sink in. All alone in the flat, no one to tell how my day was and missing Jack our puppy incredibly. Loved him so much - just want one more cuddle. Feel like I can't go to church cos Jen will be there - really missing worship. Sometimes we try pretend that everything is ok, but I'm not sure I can keep pretending anymore.

In the midst of all that I do still feel and believe that I made the right decision. Its just the outworking and consequences of that which are difficult. There just seems to be so many questions that just don't have answers at the moment.

Beginning to feel like there are so many feelings and emotions that have been supressed over the past wee while. Just don't know how to best express them. Feel angry and inevitably I end up hurting people because I'm hurting at the moment. Feel like I want to shout but I don't know what I'd say. Plus get frustrated sometimes because i find it difficult to articulate what I'm thinking and feeling. I feel so disconnected from people. I can be in the biggest group yet feel so alone. I feel like there is so much to work through - my dad dying, history of abuse, lack of intimacy from my mum, the fear of lonlieness, fear of people, feelings of vulnerability, addictions, and now the stuff with Jenny. Just really want someone to hold me.